my blogger is back!

after I posted yesterday my blogger went away, so I emailed blogger and posted at the groups and its back, hopefully it won't happen again.

Guess who visited me today? Hi Rog!

I got my nails did!

took off the french and put on normal acrylic with bright red polish.

I looove watching dr 90210, the cases, whether superficial or reconstructiive, are always entertaining or interesting.

I need to get something pierced, maybe my tongue again or the top of an ear, but something's getting pierced.

answers that don't answer anything

It's still hard to accept that after 5 years all I'm left with are these hurtful feelings, unsatisfying answers and anger.

aww Ernesto

You ditched us for Cuba, thanks! Although, I could use an excuse or two to stay home.

Saw the season finale for 4400 and was greatly underwhelmed, just bah. No new eppy of Venture Bros neither :( Fall season is upcoming and I'm not really interested in any of the shows, old or new. Except Sci-Fi is gonna show the full season of Night Stalker :) Even the 3 unaired eppies, I'm soo excited :)

Oooh! One of my fave X-Files is on, the one with original Hope from Y&R. It was actually fun and had the usual intrigue :)

aha!

I think I've figured out why Filezilla kept disconnecting. I think its the VoIP. Ive plugged it out and I havent had any interruption since. I was googling it when I noticed the Run light on the netspeak blinking so I plugged it out and I'm transfering right now without any problems. Yay me!

Also Yay! Mariska Hartigay of Law & Order SVU, she finally won am emmy for her great work on the show. Congratulations Mariska, well deserved win!

I'm just sooo fucking angry right now!

Gorillaz = Brilliance!

Check out their MTV Cribs:



Thanks Nuri!

fucking hell!!!

Life is fucked up! A very close friend can very well go to prison for defending himself! Yeah it's sad that someone died but he was an ass. Dillon walked away from, he away and this fucker runs him down and hits him! ugh! Just please. I hope he's able to make it clear what happened.

Storm's coming!

And no I'm not singing Gnarls. Apparently Jamaica is in the projected path of TS Ernesto which should be here by Sunday which means tomorrow is gonna be rainy. And guess who agreed to switch Saturdays? Yes, me, joy.

So no movie or watnot for me tomorrow.

Woke this morning to find my DSL acting weird. I can browse but my VoIP, messengers and torrent client couldn't connect. They connected for a few minutes then went back to not working. I hope it works itself out by the time I get home cuz calling C&W's customer care is a pain.

New earrings!

I bought three pairs of earrings today! Two studs and one gold hoop. I'm loving them but I'm not feeling the hoops mostly cuz I can get my fingers tangled when Im messing with my ear buds but I can wear them on special occasions.

Spoke with Rog today. All I can say is I'm starting to accept that this break-up is for the best. If you still read this, 1436.

Gonna try and bring my linux box back to work next week. Even though my monitor at work is dark I think I should try Gimping again.

where's my manners?

Thanks for the hat David!

I love my sis!

She washed and combed my hair today :) She wubs me. We went to sign some papers for mom but the JP wasn't there so we gotta go back another day.

I was supposed to buy some earrings today but the rain caught me so I rushed to work. Ive lost two halves of two diff pairs. I may just go ahead and get the top of my ear pierced while I'm at it. But it's gonna hurt and I'm scared.

I'm working this Saturday but that means I get the next two Saturdays off. David and I are supposed to go this new Japanese restaurant that doesn't have sushi :( but he says they have more traditional Japanese dishes. I hope theyre good.

Anyhoo, it's freedom time! Time to call my cab and head home.

New stove!

Came home to a new stove today :) Now I can try a bunch of recipes I've always wanted to. I've got an oven I can use! So if a coupla days from now my belly aches or I get food poisoning you'll know why.

I'm currently jamming to what's supposed to be JT's secon single, My Love with TI. I like it. Kelis' Blindfold Me is growing on me. Tomorrow I'm getting Outkast's I'm sooo excited about that :)

I forgot

Got dim sum yesterday and it was gooood! then went by David's and watched The Hills Have Eyes and Kiss Kiss Bang Bang. THHE was crap, not scary and not funny not even squeamish, I think I nodded off too. KKBB was good though, I had some laffs.

I should say thanks to Crysta, the Pantene is doing greatness for my hair.

And work! Oy! Kamilah was sick, Adrian had an exam so Monique was the only one in customer care. Lucky for her I was in town being dumped so I worked 4 extra hours today. Good news is the boss knows although I dunno what good that's gonna do.

It's official, when I grow up I'm gonna be Karen Walker of Will & Grace.

I'm single

After what...four years? I'm single again. Can't say it's a total surprise, though, I sorta knew this was coming but I guess I thought it could've been worked out. SO now you're baptized and I'm not good enough for you because fucking corithians said some shit about uneven yolk. I will say this and it maybe out of anger or whatnot but I'm sure I'll feel the same 10 years from now. I hope you NEVER find even yolk and if you do, I hope you are both fucking miserable. I hope she's a painful sad reminder of what you lost with me and I sincerely hope you regret this for the rest of your life. And not the little pangs of regret either the heavy suffocating type that keeps your ass up at night.

In the past four years, I knew who you were and I never tried to change you, I never tried to interfere with your Christianity but now your baptized it's a big issue? You can't date me but you can still have heathen friends and co-workers? But I suppose it's not the same, huh?

What really fucking hurts is feeling I'm not worth fighting for. I'm just dirt you don't want on your new clothes. thanks a lot rog.

And the devils on your shoulder that encouraged this, esp HER, congratulations, took you four years but you got what you wanted, hope you choke on it.

work is my enemy

Spent last night with Keesha and Ally and friends watching movies (Little Man[thank God I didn;t pay to see that tripe] and Madea goes to Jail[Funny!]) Then we went to Peppers to look for Eddie but he wasn't there so we stood outside and talked till like 4am. I enjoyed it! Chat bout dogs and whole heap a foolishness. I miss hanging with people.

That's why I'm at work now trying to sleep but this eediat woman won't come off the line with her dumbness. Me tiad a har now. 43 raasclaat minutes!

I'm supposed to sleepover David's tonight but I forgot my sleepover bag so I'm going have to go and come back for Dim Sum tomorrow.

Anyways me ago try get some sleep before the next eediat call me.

someone wants one of my babies :(

So Rog calls and he's like someone wants a bitch. I know I can't keep them all but I don't wanna let them go. :(

O!M!G! I just saw the ad for HBO's Rome DVD. I'm soooooooo buying it. That show is fucking greatness! Can't wait for Season 2.

I hate this fucking heat!

Oooh! Just saw the ad for Crank, I heart Jason Statham, he could soooo get it. So yeah, I'm a watch Crank.

As I was saying, this heat fucking blows! Can't wait till this house is done renovating but it's gonna take forever. Being broke blows!

some Anika history

Chris an old friend came to visit and ofcourse we chatted about the time that was. The time when most everyone were friends. The time when we'd all go out. The time we'd play dominoes all night and talk about everything and nothing. And now it's all gone, why? one couple.

Now this couple were my friends. Let's call him J and her S. J and I were closer, we share the same bday and we used to say that made us siblings. S, we were tight but not as tight as me and J. Their relationship, was bi-polar. Theyd fight, make up, fight, make rinse and repeat. Where the problem came in was their respective families weren't very for this relationship so they sorta snuck around. Everyone knew they were together but they couldn't be at each other's house together. This is where the trouble started.

Everytime word got back to their parents theyd think it was one of her cousins A or T. It couldve been them but not totally. The 'lady' that live to me is a A-class village lawyer(gossip monger) that woman, B, spent a lot of her time at her gate just watching people and spreading shit. And the lines we being drawn. S stopped talking to A and T, J didn't but their relationships were strained. I was friends with everyone but that was running hagged. Esp since shit was being said about me and J's sister's bf. (lost ya yet?) I was supposedly fucking him, heh.

Now, everyone was still basically playing dominoes and partying even with the strained or broken relationships. And I mustve been dumb cuz I never thought we'd split for good but we did.

I was pretty passive in this until S stabbed A in her sleep, she put r garlic or watnot on the blade so she wouldn't feel it and basically left her to bleed in her sleep. Did I mention A and S are cousins? I really couldn't be friends with S after that. then me and J's realtionship that was already strained broke. I remember that talk. He was mad that A had S arrested. According to him theyre family and they shouldve worked it out between them. I told him point blank that that was BS. She stabbed her in her sleep, left her to bleed ot death and she should continue to stay in the same house as her? leave her free to try again? he seriously just walked off and that was that for us.

S went to court and got probation and she and her mom and sis moved into another house up the street. I lost track of their drama cuz I was in the middle of mine. All of a sudden I was sleeping with everyone's man and me like the perfect idiot trying to placate everyone repeating myself and explaining the fucking obvious. Like for instance, R one of the bf's I was supposed to be fucking used to come to my house to play solitaire and wait for dominoes to start(his gf's mom didnt like him so he couldn't hang there.) My mom used to work the evening shift on Fridays and she'd leave like at 2 or thereabouts and he came around that time. Now this was before the addition the computer was at the front window whcich was always open during the day bcuz of the heat, same for the door. SO anyone walking past could see him. meanwhile my ass is in my room sleeping, cuz I was up all night playing dominoes or chatting shit. I wake up in the evening in time for dominoes and we both left to play. Next thing I hear, me and him were locked up in my house all damn day. 1) My mom was there half day 2) all those fuckers KNOW my house is too hot to lock the windows and doors during the day.

I would try to defend myself against this shit. And so the rumours continued till I had my fill. his gf asked me once if we were fucking and I told her yes cuz I was pissed. Shit Ive been saying 'no' for weeks apparently it wasnt pleasing to her so I changed the answer. Bitch hasnt spoken to me since. He called me asking why I said and I told him I was tired and she apparently wasnt satisfied with no so I gave her a new flavour and he laughed. It's around that tine we started fucking, I was getting the blame might as well play the game. That was some good sex.

Now, me and Chris rehashed all this and we had some luaghs but you know what's real key, the relationship that started this is busted now and busted good. he migrated and discovered he's gay and likes being taken care of by some guy. S was devasted when she found out but she's over it now, she's got a new man and daughter.

Me, I don;t talk to none of them bitches no more. A lot of my friends ask why I spend so much time in my house and online, that's a major reason. Not to say there isn't fucked up ppl online but theyre easier to get rid off.

I'm still mad and sad we lost dominoes and the fun but Ive gained a thicker skin and a realization that I shouldn;t care so much what people think and say about me. people are gonna always talk shit.

Hmm, I seem to have left out some stuff but my fingers hurt and this was good, typing this shit out was therapy. And if I was to type out all the shit I'd be here all night and my ass needs to get home.

another not so lazy Sunday

Bah! Didn't get everything I wanted done done. I did get mom's computers setup but mine isn't. Mom;s stuff is off mine so I dont have to sit around and wait for her to get off mine, greatness. Gregory came by to help, thankfully.

For some dumb reason Filezilla breaks the connection saying something about software error, annoying as fuck. All I wanna do is update my music and vids and stuff but I cant. I'm gonna see if filezilla needs updating or something.

Still haven't gone by Keesha's yet. And I feel bad cuz I didn't even call. First thing tomorrow, for real.

I actually watched Keyshia's show on BET. Got new respect for her. I respect anyone that worked their way up from a shitty life. I now get why she' got a stank attitude but she needs to reconize not everyone is out to do her harm, she should chill sometimes.

My screen is still flickering or what not, gonna try reseating or dusting off my vid card cuz it doesn't happen on my linux box and adjusting my settings change nothing.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go get my dad's birth certificate sorted, but I'ma wait and see. Gonna call first.

Gonna go get me a shower, ttyl.

:(

Ok, the kids are fed, my hair is washed, mom's computers are all installed and shit. I still need to update my linux box though but that's gonna be later or tomorrow.

Keesha's grandad died, he had had a stroke. I was going to go by her tonight but I think tomorrow will be better. Sooo not looking forward to this. I feel so helpless around grieving people.

sleep!

woke up a coupla times this morning. I hate interrupted sleep. One of the times it was one of mom's friend, asked her where my umbrella is and she's acting like she doesn't remember but I'm just gonna buy a new one. The pups also waked me, one got herself stuck and I had to rearrange stuff for them.

I'm about to head back to bed but I got some computer stuff to do with mine and mom's computers, :(

Also I need to check out onlinetvrecorder but aother friend is, I'll wait on him but the channels are German channels and my German is non existent but I'm a still keep my eye on it in case it expands.

My hair needs washing, I'm trying to pull it out but I'm gonna go sleep and try again later.

One more!

So I go to check up on the pups and there's one more, a black one. My neighbor says there were more when she was at her previous spot.

Friday! No work tomorrow! I brought home my linux box, gonna update it and try attaching the scanner and scan some pics.

What else? eh nothing much. got some pics of the pups though:

I have pups!

For the past few nights Ive been hearing puppies making noise but I just assumed it was the neighbor's. Nope they're in my yard. It's three of them a black one, brown one and black and white mom. My other neighbor says there were more pups but I dunno where, I looked around my yard and only the three. It's two now, I dunno where the black one has gone off to. The black & white one has a club foot. When I came back to take pics he was gone. I'm a need to block off the hole in the wall so they stay inside. Here they are under some construction materials hiding from the sun:

ugh!

so, I heard game's one blood today . I hate, hate, hate, hate when they sample a song and twist it's original meaning. (that includes you jamie foxx and kanye west for wat you did with Ray's song) Game took a song about unity, putting aside differences to do a weak ass rap about his dumbass feud with his exes.

it's one of those months, when you've spent a lot of money and no idea where it's gone. I haven't made any unnecessary purchases but I'm broke and the 28th is tooooo far away.

Rog, it's been how long since your name was here? I called him to stop by me on his way home. This joker turns up at my office door, topless! LOL cheered me up, cuz I wasn't in a good mood.

walked to and fro Wendy's today, felt good.

and apparently my workload is gonna increase. not only customer care but sales? should be fun.

Finally saw the Cham + Alicia Keys vid, I like it. I'm too lazy to go hit up youtube and embed itm do it youself. I also saw a teaser for Smokin' Aces at http://www.smokinacesmovie.net/teaser/ I can't wait to see it. It looks very Guy Ritchie-ish, the lock-stock-and-two-smoking-barrels and snatch Guy Ritchie :) My husband is in it :) Common!

I subjected myself to what's supposed to be beyonce's next single. it's better than deja poo(love that name) but it still sounds unfinished, like it still needs some touching up. I'm not feeling this new beyonce. Not that I'm a fan but she could still put out some good stuff but these two songs, ain't gonna make it to my ipod at all.

Watching mr & mrs smith, I love that movie.

I have been writing, just not IOU(sorry Crys) Back 2 Basics has been pretty inspiring.

Anyhoo I'm off, ttyl

today sucked and was good

oy vey! today all the dumbasses stayed home and called customer care. I'm not even gonna relive the dumbness I had to endure today.

Anyways, the bf stopped by :) love you Rog!

OK, 4400 just got interesting again. Jordan is back!!! I'm soo watching Sunday's, I wanna see Jordan and Isabelle!

finally

OK, I finally uploaded the picks from last wednesday:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/hetairai/sets/72157594226924074/

FYI

Me being a Xtina stan aside, I'm looooooooooooooving Back 2 Basics. mercy On Me, The Right Man, Hurt, Understand and others! And I love that she's mellowed out on this album, her adlibs are suitably turned down :) I'm so buying this!

Back to regular scheduled programming.

I'm back!

lol, Ive been back since Wedneday night but I wasn't feeling well so I went straight to bed. Had a great time Wednesday though. Ate too much, swam in the sea(which reminds me I need swimsuits), hung with my cousins and took pictures. And you know what? All the food I ate I threw up on Mt Rosser :( For the first time in years I got motion sickness.

Idlewild at the end of August! I hope Palace don't make me wait too long! Every commercial, every music video make me wanna see this move more and more and the album! Dammit! I need some gooooooood new music. Apart from Nelly Furtado, Gnarls and India new music has been suckage lately. letoya's album sucks! yes I know she's #1 and she beat pharrel which means his album may suck more. I got some ne albums, Cassie's which I knew was gonna suck but I still wanted to hear it. Tamia's Between Friends is good though, I'm on the 4th track and haven't deleted anything yet. And I also have Xtina's album. I'm a Xtina stan and as much as I like her trying something new I hope it doesn't blow up in her face or my ears. Stripped was greatness so hopefully B2B isn't too bad.

I need to request Gnarl's smiley faces video cuz none of the torrent guys have it up and I'm getting mighty impatient. That vid belongs on me ipod.

As for Wedneday's pictures, I'll post them on Sunday. I'm trying to clear other to-do stuff first.

Pics!

ok, I used my digi cam and took pics of some pics of me when I was younger. I'm gona need to hook up the scanner to do them better but that's for another day.

Some friends of mine posted their baby pics and I've succumbed to peer pressure and posted mine. Here's the link to them:

Anika's younger pics

What did I do today, Emanciption Day? Took pics and slept. I'm gonna pack for my trip to country tomorrow. Well there's no packing since its just one day but I'm charge the ipod and digicam batteries. FOOD!!!!! hehe.